Thank you for your comments. I was able to miscarry naturally at home over the weekend. I had an ultrasound today and they said everything looked fine. I am relieved that I didn't have to have the procedure and I am hoping that now I will be able to let go and try to move on. I want to be able to get back into my routine so that when we are able to start trying to conceive again I will be ready. I had read some things online that said I might see the babies and that burying them was a good way to have closure. Once I got that idea in my head I felt disappointed that I wasn't able to see my babies. I'm not sure whether it would have been a good idea, but it's hard to let go. I'm not sure that I have really dealt with the fact that my pregnancy is completely over. Thanks for letting me vent my feelings. I was also wondering what experience others had with the natural miscarriage. I did not expect it to be so painful, I wish there had been more information online so I had been prepared for the pain.
Through the wringer, yet again
I didn't think I would be posting on this blog... or, really, I was hoping I wouldn't be posting my own personal, current, struggles here again. It has been over 3 years since we first set on our journey of "sub-fertility." Since then, we had Daniel born March 2010. I have heard countless stories of people who had problems getting pregnant that when they were ready for the next, they started trying early, anticipating the time, and mental/emotional energy. Then, the next kid came within a few months of trying which made their two kids really close in age. I thought for sure that would happen to us. We had one miscarriage before our first daughter. 4 months later we were pregnant. When she was 17 months we started trying for number 2. I was diagnosed as having blocked tubes the first month into ttc. It was a devastating, role robbing, purpose crashing diagnosis. I lived with that diagnosis for 9 months, until finally, I could go in for some additional testing (that p...
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