Faith, Hope, and Sorrow

Lately I am joining clubs I never wanted to be a part of. First I joined the "infertility" club. I was getting used to being in that one, and though it wasn't easy, it was familiar territory. However, I just joined the "miscarriage" club, and that is not familiar territory for me. I'm not really sure why I'm writing on here, except that I don't know what else to do. I know some of you have experienced this, and of all people, you understand why a miscarriage is especially heartbreaking when you've been trying to have a baby for so long. I just feel so lost, and so empty. Aside from our families, and a few close friends, no one even knew we were expecting yet. In some ways I want to wear a sign explaining my grief, since I know I won't be myself for a little while. But at the same time, I don't want to even talk about it, even to the people I am closest to. There just aren't words to say. I keep wandering around my house aim...

So my family has been horribly sick the past few weeks and I've sort of checked out of the blogging world. What are your thoughts about Valentine's Day? Did you do anything special?

Here are our cute kids! So glad they're ours! (sealed Nov 2004)

What are your children's names? How did you choose them?

I did a post a while ago on my family, I just thought I would include some pictures now. My husband,Kurt, and I have been married 5 years this July. We a beautiful daughter, Lillian, who is quickly approching the 3 1/2 mark. We TTC for just under two years and found out in Oct. we are finally expecting our second child. On Feb. 11 we discover baby's gender. My husband is in his final semester of Law School. We are in the job hunting phase - yuck! I went to a community college and currently hold an Associates Degree. I taught preschool for about three years. I "retired" to be a SAHM. Some days I miss teaching, but I wouldn't go back unless I financially had to. Lillian McKenzie: Pictures taken for her 3rd birthday! Our Family: My hot husband and daughter. (Taken at my brother's wedding)