Miscarriage #2

I guess you could say I'm in a pretty bad place right now. We already had a plateful of trials, and being pregnant was one of the few things we had going for us. Then I lost that too. This time is even worse than the last. After the last miscarriage four months ago, I was able to find a small glimmer of hope in the fact that I got pregnant. But now, after having two miscarriages in a row, coupled with the fact that we've struggled for so long to get pregnant, I am facing the fact that something is definitely wrong. I am terrified to put msyelf through this. I absolutely cannot face the thought of starting over again; of having intimacy with my husband be charted and planned, the misery each month when I get my period, and now...facing the probability that even if I do ever get pregnant again, I'll probably just lose it.

I know I will be seeing my Dr this week, and since you guys are knowledgable about this, and some of you have gone through exactly this, I'm curious if you have any suggestions for what my next step should be. Before I got pregnant this month, I actually filled a prescription for Clomid. I'm curious if that will still be my Dr's suggestion. I know you're supposed to ovulate more mature egges with Clomid-would that help prevent miscarriage? Or does it sound to you like I'm deficient in progesterone, or one of the other hormones needed to support pregnancy? Have any of you had to do injections while you were pregnant? I'm sure my Dr will be able to answer a lot of my questions, but I want to be as prepared as possible for the appt.

Honestly at this point, I am ready to fill out the adoption papers sitting in my office. I just don't know if I can, or want to put myself through this again right now...