The Culprit...


I have been frustrated trying to figure out with the doctors why I am not getting pregnant the last 23 months. I almost want to find something so it can be fixed. I have been looking forward to getting the dye test because I was pretty sure that my fallopian tubes were blocked cause nothing else seemed to be out of place. I think the radiologist was surprised when I got teary eyed when he told me everything was perfect and nothing was wrong. I just want to find something to fix it. I guess we are back to the drawing board again. I sat in my car after and just balled. It seems like when ever I feel like I just cannot do this anymore and feel so weak the Lord blessings me with the spirit or shows me someone else who has it worse that I can serve. I really have been letting little comments get to me and I need not to. Mostly it bugs me when I confide in someone what I am going through and they come back with a "I have a friend who went 8 years before getting pregnant, you're fine, don't worry about it". I guess this month has just been hard because I would have been having a baby around this time if I had not miscarried. I just wish I could find the culprit so we could fix it!

Comments

Dirk and Trish said…
No answer seems worse than a defined problem. I'm so sorry! We're on month 23 also and it's "not fun". I hope you can find out what's wrong or that the nothing wrong will quit being a problem.
Katie said…
Oh, Kathy, I know what you mean about the miscarriage thing. I would have been starting my 3rd trimester right about now. I think about it a lot now, especially since I recently found out several of my near and dear friends are pregnant. And I'm happy for them, I really am, I'm just ready for some blessings. It's been a tough few years.

I haven't gone down the testing route yet, but I'm about ready to. I have my yearly physical with my primary care doc in a few weeks, and think I'll be requesting a full thyroid workup.
Queen Mother said…
I think it is much worse to not have a definite answer. I don't really have one, either. It would be so much better to know just so that they can know what treatment plan will work for you!

Hang in there

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