Faith, Hope, and Sorrow

Hi my name is Amber. Annie introduced me to this blog, she has been a close friend for several years and is now having a baby in January, YA! I have a wonderful husband Josh and a beautiful 4 year old girl Kaydence. We are on our 15 month of trying for a baby and it has been a rough road. The first time around was too easy, we actually found out we were pregnant about 6 weeks before our wedding. I think it was the lords way of giving us that extra push into marriage. She had been our greatest blessing and we are so thankful for her in our life! Last July I finally finished my degree and we thought it would be a perfect time to start trying. I had my IUD removed and the fun began. It took me awhile to get my period, so we had some false hope. After trying for 7 months my period stopped. I called my doctor and found out that I had a cyst, instead of a baby :( So I decided to work on trying to lose some weight, because I quickly gained 40 lbs after having my IUD removed, not fun! I was ab...

I went back to the specialist (honestly, I don't remember her title) for a baseline ultrasound. She got a copy of the operation report from my other dr. and said I'm actually worse than we thought. I had told her the basics, which were true, but things were actually a little more messed up than that. Even though my tubes are open, they have scar tissue from endo adhesions. My ovaries weren't just out of place, they were basically glued down. Bad news today-the endo has already started coming back and it's on my ovary again. Good news-I don't have any new cysts and the fibroids my dr. saw are small and external, so they won't complicate things. The specialist said the endo is so aggressive that we can try to hold it off and do intervention to have more kids, but the chances of my keeping my insides intact forever is pretty slim. I'm not going to worry about that for now, and I already knew it was a possibility in the (hopefully distant) future b/c my m...